Never Give Up: Buddhism, Family & Schizophrenia

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New Post has been published on http://www.sundancekidonline.com/refusing-to-tolerate-passive-violence/Refusing to Tolerate Passive ViolenceLast week I read an interview of SGI President Ikeda published in an independent New Zealand news wire called Scoop. The article, titled “Peace On Earth: An Interview with Daisaku Ikeda,” takes the form of five questions and the answers to these questions as written by Daisaku Ikeda. I was especially interested in Question Two: Passive Violence, as I believe it relates to our society here in the U.S.. Scoop co-founder and interviewer Alastair Thompson, poses the following question to Mr. Ikeda: What is the role of individuals in eliminating passive violence? President Ikeda goes on to describe the “Pyramid of Hate” created by the Anti-Defamation League. The Pyramid of Hate shows biased behaviors, growing in complexity from the bottom to the top. At the bottom is 1) bias; 2) individual acts of prejudice; 3) discrimination; 4) bias-motivated violence; 5) genocide. The point is that when the kinds of behaviors on the lower level(s) of the pyramid are treated as acceptable, societal conditions can escalate until it reaches genocide. This is meant to demonstrate that broad social divides and conflicts do not happen overnight – they take years to build up.
The other important point that President Ikeda makes in this section is the idea that it is important for us as members of a democratic society not to tolerate even behaviors on the lowest levels, such as bias, prejudice and discrimination. This is part of the belief that if we tolerate this type of “passive violence,” then it is no better than if we behave that way ourselves. In other words, as founding Soka Gakkai President Makiguchi states:
The root malady of contemporary society lies in not distinguishing failure to do good with doing good, viewing the former as somehow different from doing evil and acceptable as long as one does not violate any law. This is why egotism and hypocrisy are running rampant.
- “The Complete Works of Tsunesaburo Makiguchi”, V 10 p 29

This makes me think of our current politicians who have managed to accomplish very little during the past several years, yet receive their salaries nonetheless. I’ve heard and read about many Congressmen and Congresswomen who seem to share extraordinarily hypocritical views, particularly with regard to women, minorities and the LGBT community. This is a very specific example of “passive violence.” Congress certainly isn’t breaking any laws (at least not that I’m aware of), yet when we look at the lower levels of the Pyramid of Hate, especially the bottom three, I can find incidents of biased, prejudicial and discriminatory behavior in many members of both the House and the Senate, in addition to the institutionalized racism and discrimination that is part of our society.
We live in a democracy (although it seems to more closely resemble a plutocracy), and I expect more from the U.S. Congress. While they may not be criminal activities, hypocrisy, discrimination and dishonesty make me angry. I hope we can improve our society and our politicians by refusing to tolerate passive violence.

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Refusing to Tolerate Passive Violence

Last week I read an interview of SGI President Ikeda published in an independent New Zealand news wire called Scoop. The article, titled “Peace On Earth: An Interview with Daisaku Ikeda,” takes the form of five questions and the answers to these questions as written by Daisaku Ikeda. I was especially interested in Question Two: Passive Violence, as I believe it relates to our society here in the U.S.. Scoop co-founder and interviewer Alastair Thompson, poses the following question to Mr. Ikeda: What is the role of individuals in eliminating passive violence? President Ikeda goes on to describe the “Pyramid of Hate” created by the Anti-Defamation League. The Pyramid of Hate shows biased behaviors, growing in complexity from the bottom to the top. At the bottom is 1) bias; 2) individual acts of prejudice; 3) discrimination; 4) bias-motivated violence; 5) genocide. The point is that when the kinds of behaviors on the lower level(s) of the pyramid are treated as acceptable, societal conditions can escalate until it reaches genocide. This is meant to demonstrate that broad social divides and conflicts do not happen overnight – they take years to build up.

The other important point that President Ikeda makes in this section is the idea that it is important for us as members of a democratic society not to tolerate even behaviors on the lowest levels, such as bias, prejudice and discrimination. This is part of the belief that if we tolerate this type of “passive violence,” then it is no better than if we behave that way ourselves. In other words, as founding Soka Gakkai President Makiguchi states:

The root malady of contemporary society lies in not distinguishing failure to do good with doing good, viewing the former as somehow different from doing evil and acceptable as long as one does not violate any law. This is why egotism and hypocrisy are running rampant.

- “The Complete Works of Tsunesaburo Makiguchi”, V 10 p 29

passive violence, nonviolence, active violence, buddhism, hypocrisy

This makes me think of our current politicians who have managed to accomplish very little during the past several years, yet receive their salaries nonetheless. I’ve heard and read about many Congressmen and Congresswomen who seem to share extraordinarily hypocritical views, particularly with regard to women, minorities and the LGBT community. This is a very specific example of “passive violence.” Congress certainly isn’t breaking any laws (at least not that I’m aware of), yet when we look at the lower levels of the Pyramid of Hate, especially the bottom three, I can find incidents of biased, prejudicial and discriminatory behavior in many members of both the House and the Senate, in addition to the institutionalized racism and discrimination that is part of our society.

We live in a democracy (although it seems to more closely resemble a plutocracy), and I expect more from the U.S. Congress. While they may not be criminal activities, hypocrisy, discrimination and dishonesty make me angry. I hope we can improve our society and our politicians by refusing to tolerate passive violence.

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Distinguishing Between Good and Evil

Founding Soka Gakkai president Tsunesaburo Makiguchi left the following important words of guidance:

“Unless you have the courage to be an enemy of those who are evil, you cannot be a friend to the good.”  - Living Buddhism, April 2014 p. 46

Current SGI president Daisaku Ikeda goes on to state: “It is very important to perceive and understand negative influences for what they are and stand firm against them. Good cannot prevail unless we combat evil. Defeating negative forces is also a form of compassion.” Compassion does not always necessarily mean to pity a person or to commiserate with them regarding all of their troubles. In certain instances, a person might need to be corrected and taught the proper way to resolve their problems. In other cases, the negative or evil behavior needs to be immediately curtailed. Compassion does not mean allowing other people to deceive us or to take advantage of our good nature.

An extreme case in point would be Hitler. Obviously, he was the epitome of evil and he had to be defeated. There was no question about it. In other cases and with different people, the distinction is not always so crystal clear. Yet, we still need the ability to distinguish right from wrong, truth from lies, and good from evil. As Edmund Burke’s saying goes: “All that is needed for evil to triumph, is for good men to do nothing.”

Herbie Hancock: Buddhism and Creativity | Mahindra Humanities Center

New Post has been published on http://www.sundancekidonline.com/reflection-change-and-a-positive-attitude/Reflection, Change and a Positive AttitudeI like today is a day of reflection, change and moving forward. As always, I make a constant effort to stay positive and think positive. My attitude means everything, especially my own thoughts. Often, my inner attitude is negative and angry, even if on the outside I appear pleasant – inside I may be thinking something entirely different. I believe that my attitude is critical to my own happiness. After all, no one has a perfect life, and if I try hard enough, I can always find something to be angry about. My challenge is to have a great attitude and keep focused on the positive things in my life.
Earlier, I uploaded a few pictures of San Francisco I took a few weeks ago with my husband. We spend an afternoon on a Bay cruise and had dinner afterward on Pier 39. It was a sunny, windy afternoon and we watched a gorgeous sunset over dinner at Neptune’s Palace. The night we became engaged over six years ago, we had dinner at Neptune’s Palace and drove up to Twin Peaks afterward. That night it was foggy and windy, but I’ll always remember it as the most romantic night of my life. After all, it was the night we became engaged!

I still have a little bit to finish up for the last chapter of my memoir, but as the saying goes: “It’s not over ’till the fat lady sings!” I keep chanting daimoku for justice, and for the success of my memoir. This month I’ve volunteered to share my experience at my monthly Buddhist discussion meeting. I only have a brief time to share my experience, but I will write up a brief description of what I’m writing about in my memoir so that I can share this with the other members and guests. I’m really looking forward to sharing with others, and I hope other people will be encouraged by my own experience.

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Reflection, Change and a Positive Attitude

I like today is a day of reflection, change and moving forward. As always, I make a constant effort to stay positive and think positive. My attitude means everything, especially my own thoughts. Often, my inner attitude is negative and angry, even if on the outside I appear pleasant – inside I may be thinking something entirely different. I believe that my attitude is critical to my own happiness. After all, no one has a perfect life, and if I try hard enough, I can always find something to be angry about. My challenge is to have a great attitude and keep focused on the positive things in my life.

Earlier, I uploaded a few pictures of San Francisco I took a few weeks ago with my husband. We spend an afternoon on a Bay cruise and had dinner afterward on Pier 39. It was a sunny, windy afternoon and we watched a gorgeous sunset over dinner at Neptune’s Palace. The night we became engaged over six years ago, we had dinner at Neptune’s Palace and drove up to Twin Peaks afterward. That night it was foggy and windy, but I’ll always remember it as the most romantic night of my life. After all, it was the night we became engaged!

attitude, positive attitude, happiness, writing

I still have a little bit to finish up for the last chapter of my memoir, but as the saying goes: “It’s not over ’till the fat lady sings!” I keep chanting daimoku for justice, and for the success of my memoir. This month I’ve volunteered to share my experience at my monthly Buddhist discussion meeting. I only have a brief time to share my experience, but I will write up a brief description of what I’m writing about in my memoir so that I can share this with the other members and guests. I’m really looking forward to sharing with others, and I hope other people will be encouraged by my own experience.

New Post has been published on http://www.sundancekidonline.com/it-all-comes-down-to-you/It All Comes Down To YouAfter feeling angry and somewhat despondent over the past few weeks, I’m making an effort to get back on track. I’ll start posting to my blog again once a week on Wednesdays, but I’ve decided to cancel my monthly newsletter. It takes too much time, it’s just as easy to write up the same information in a blog post. In order to start refreshed and on a positive note, I found a quote from SGI President Daisaku Ikeda from March 3rd in Buddhism Day by Day.

It all comes down to you. I hope you won’t rely on others or wait for them to do something. Try to develop such a strong sense of responsibility that you can stand up to the fiercest storms, confidently proclaiming, “I’ll do it. Just watch me!” Please confront reality, look it squarely in the face, and with guts, wisdom and strength, challenge everything that lies ahead of you.

This is a great quote, but it isn’t easy to do. It takes courage to take responsibility for our own happiness and our own problems. It takes courage not to blame other people. I am determined to do everything in my power to succeed at resolving my problems and become a successful writer. I have rarely left anything up to others, except when I had no choice. If it was up to me, I would take care of everything myself.

It is important to stay positive, and my Buddhist practice is crucial in this regard. Even so, I still get angry when I believe there is injustice. Injustice in society does not resolve itself, we must fight for justice. I chant and pray every day for my own happiness and for justice. I keep fighting.

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It All Comes Down To You

After feeling angry and somewhat despondent over the past few weeks, I’m making an effort to get back on track. I’ll start posting to my blog again once a week on Wednesdays, but I’ve decided to cancel my monthly newsletter. It takes too much time, it’s just as easy to write up the same information in a blog post. In order to start refreshed and on a positive note, I found a quote from SGI President Daisaku Ikeda from March 3rd in Buddhism Day by Day.

It all comes down to you. I hope you won’t rely on others or wait for them to do something. Try to develop such a strong sense of responsibility that you can stand up to the fiercest storms, confidently proclaiming, “I’ll do it. Just watch me!” Please confront reality, look it squarely in the face, and with guts, wisdom and strength, challenge everything that lies ahead of you.

This is a great quote, but it isn’t easy to do. It takes courage to take responsibility for our own happiness and our own problems. It takes courage not to blame other people. I am determined to do everything in my power to succeed at resolving my problems and become a successful writer. I have rarely left anything up to others, except when I had no choice. If it was up to me, I would take care of everything myself.

justice, injustice, courage, happiness

It is important to stay positive, and my Buddhist practice is crucial in this regard. Even so, I still get angry when I believe there is injustice. Injustice in society does not resolve itself, we must fight for justice. I chant and pray every day for my own happiness and for justice. I keep fighting.

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Gray wolf (Canis lupus) from the Sawtooth pack
By Jim and Jamie Dutcher

wolveswolves:

Gray wolf (Canis lupus) from the Sawtooth pack

By Jim and Jamie Dutcher

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What’s Wrong with this Picture?

“The voice does the Buddha’s work.” – On Practicing the Buddha’s Teachings

“When a lion roars all the other beasts are silenced.” – The One-Eyed Turtle and the Floating Log

Kosen-rufu is a struggle of words. It was so in Nichiren Daishonin’s time; it is so today and will remain so into the eternal future. That’s why our voices are important; they are our weapon, our ammunition. If we keep proclaiming the truth, our words are certain to touch the hearts of those to whom we talk. If we continue to speak out for justice, we will be able to defeat wrongdoing and injustice. An earnest voice, an impassioned voice will reach and move people’s hearts.

SGI President Ikeda Mar 2014 Living Buddhism

Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism does not teach passivity. We are not taught to sit idly by and ignore the wrongs and injustices in our society. Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism teaches the exact opposite. We must stand up and speak out for what is right, and not allow those with malicious intent to take advantage or deceive us.

Today is March 17, 2014. The man who continues to stalk, harass, scream and yell at me (I will call him Loach) is still around my mobile home park. He screams, “We’re tired of doing this!” or “We’re not giving up on this!” and other nonsensical, meaningless statements at the top of his lungs. I have no idea what is real name is, if I did, I would have filed either a lawsuit or at the very least a restraining order (with miles and miles of distance between us) years ago. As it stands currently, the people with this information refuse to share it with me and, as far as I can tell, have directed everyone else to do the same.

Is there something wrong with this situation? Why would anyone with legitimate information about this person (Loach) willfully keep it from me? According to my calculations, Loach has been in my life since late 2009 or early 2010, and has always exhibited this type of deranged behavior. For those who are not familiar with this situation, he is usually accompanied by a few other women (I’m assuming drug addicts, whores, prostitutes) and generally another male. I know this because I can hear them.

Since this small group of people follow me everywhere I go (Safeway, Target, Pet Smart, 24 Hour Fitness, etc…) and tend to harass the employees of these stores, as well as scream and yell from the parking lot, many other people are aware of this situation. Lawsuits have already been filed, although I was excluded from participating. Apparently, every major retail outlet in the San Jose area filed suit against either Loach himself, or the people who were/are in charge of the investigation and/or trial. As my in-laws live in Gilroy and I often visit them with my husband, the cities of Gilroy and Morgan Hill were affected and filed suit. To no avail.

I ask this question again, isn’t there something wrong with this situation? Why would the people investigating Loach, his affiliation with the Mafia, Preston Scott, and who ever else is involved, purposefully exclude me from their investigation and refuse to give me any information that would actually help me rid my life of these degenerate people? The people in charge obviously haven’t accomplished anything because Loach is still here. Over the years I have speculated on this and come up with only a few plausible reasons, all of which are invalid. They amount to no more than excuses or lies or both.

(1) I was not included in this investigation for my own safety. The threat of Loach, the Mafia, etc… was too great; I might be killed, my husband might be killed, or someone else in my family would be put in danger.

This is not a valid reason because I and my family lived with the constant presence of Loach and the Mafia for several years before anyone appeared to look into this matter. If the Mafia had wanted me dead, they had many, many years to kill me (since 2002). This also hold true for my husband and my family. For all the efforts of whatever special Congressional or Senate investigative committee that was sent to take care of this and ostensibly protect me, the Mafia who appeared in Sunnyvale due to this trial over the past year or so, made numerous attempts to murder me anyway. I managed to avoid their attempts with the help of my dog and my own wits. The reason I am alive today is NOT due in any way to the protection of a government employee.

(2) ???

I can’t think of any other reason for keeping this information from me. As I have speculated in a previous blog post, I would be willing to bet that it is solely due to their fear of being sued.

Here are my current beliefs on the matter: The previously team appointed by Congress? The Senate? to come out here and investigate the matter accomplished NOTHING. Whether or not they were working together with the FBI I do not know, but I would guess that they were not. Another unanswered question since the work of the FBI does specifically entail investigating and prosecuting the Mafia. Never mind all the attempts I myself have made to contact the San Francisco FBI office with no success. I believe this specially appointed team was fired last week because they managed to make the situation worse than it was before they came, in addition to failing miserably at resolving the problem(s). Never mind the use of the Twitter/internet feed that for some insane reason people rely on as a credible source of information.

Presently, I believe the CIA has taken over. I have little faith in the CIA and I would be willing to bet that they will be unable to resolve this situation either. I say this because I still have not been contacted by anyone regarding Loach, and because I really don’t believe this problem is their priority. The biggest cause of this problem, the person (and group of people) who prompted the cities of Gilroy and Morgan Hill, as well as every major retailer in the San Jose area to file suit (Loach), is still here. Is is really that difficult to figure out what to do with him? Are so many people that cowardly and incompetent that they still can’t bring themselves to share his information with me or include me? This would seem to be the case, and it is truly a sad state of affairs when the one thing the U.S. government fears most is a mere lawsuit.

I pose the following questions to my readers:

- who is Loach? what is his real name? does he have a mailing address?

- why am I still being kept out of the proceedings? (assuming there are still people actively working on this)

- who was in charge of this investigation/trial initially? names and phone numbers please

- who is currently in charge of this investigation/trial? names and phone numbers please

Trust me, providing me with this information is not illegal and you will not be breaking any laws. They can’t sue you for providing me with this information because they have no grounds for a lawsuit. The only person who has grounds to sue is ME. I can be contacted by email at jennifer@sundancekidonline.com or by cell (408) 823-7774 (I only have one phone number).

Sincerely,

Jennifer Myers

 

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"Changeling" - The Subject of Female Disempowerment

Changeling – The Movie

The Subject of Female Disempowerment

I watched the movie “Changeling” starring Angelina Jolie a few years ago, and the movie’s theme of female disempowerment is strikingly similar to my own experience. “Changeling” is a 2008 drama film based partly on real-life events that took place in California during the late 1920s. The events I find most similar to my own experience are those experienced by Christine Collins (portrayed in the movie by Angelina Jolie). In Los Angeles 1928, single mother Christine Collins returns home to find her nine-year-old son, Walter, missing. In an attempt to counter the negative publicity surrounding the Los Angeles Police Department at the time, Captain J.J. Jones, the head of LAPD’s Juvenile Division, brings Christine a different boy whom he insists is her own son, Walter.

Christine challenges Captain Jones with the physical differences between her son and the impostor, and obtains signed statements from her son’s teacher and dentist, both of which state the new child is not her son. In response, Jones has a medical doctor visit Christine to explain away the physical discrepancies with lies. A newspaper prints a story that implies Christine is an unfit mother. Christine then tells her story to the press; as a result, Jones sends her to Los Angeles County Hospital’s “psychopathic ward.” While hospitalized, Christine is deemed delusional by her doctor and forcibly medicated with mood-regulating pills. Christine also meets another female patient who tells her she is one of several women sent to the Los Angeles County psychiatric ward for challenging police authority, including domestic violence. After Christine was released from the hospital, she sued the LAPD twice, winning the second lawsuit. The California State Legislature later made it illegal for the police to commit someone to a psychiatric facility without a warrant, although currently California law states three (3) specific criteria, at least one of which has to be met for involuntary hospitalization.

In my experience, the evidence for my false diagnosis isn’t as tangible as the physical differences between one child and another. However, the methods are the same. Every attempt I have made at challenging the schizophrenia diagnosis has been met with lies. In exactly the same way Christine Collins was deemed delusional, I was also deemed delusional. Over the past twelve years, I have been hospitalized in psychiatric wards three different times for an illness I never had. I have been treated by a variety of psychiatrists and therapists for an illness I didn’t have, and for the past twelve years, I have taken a vast array of anti-psychotic medications for an illness I never had.

I even experienced the same treatment by the police, only I was illegally hospitalized by the Sunnyvale Police Department, rather than the Los Angeles Police Department. What striking similarities! The Wikipedia article states the following about Christine Collins’ experience in the late 1920′s:

“As women ceased to be second-class citizens and began to assert their independence, the male establishment used mental institutions in an effort to disempower them; in common with other “unmanageable” women, Collins is subjected to medical treatment designed to break her spirit and compel obedience.”

Even today, over eighty-five years later, strong, independent women are seen as a threat to the patriarchy.

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 Click on the link above to view the video on YouTube. The transcript is below.
 With this initial video podcast, I will briefly explain from my perspective, the reality as I see it. In an attempt to dispel the lies, gossip, rumors, or whatever other misinformation may be out there, I will share my own experience. 
 As I am currently revising my memoir manuscript and getting it ready for publication, I will not go into great detail here. This is the purpose of my memoir, titled “Never Give Up: Buddhism, Family and Schizophrenia.” My experience with the mafia and the other stalkers began in 2002. I have described the beginnings when I lived in Southern California from 2001 until March 2002 in my Kindle ebook, “The Voices Never Stopped.” This is available on Amazon for $1.99. This ebook ends when I leave for Northern California in March/April of 2002, and the remainder of my experience (up until the present) is described in my memoir. I am hoping to publish my memoir later this year. 
 In “The Voices Never Stopped,” I describe the appearance of the mafia in my life, as well as my roommates and coworkers who start to stalk and harass me – including the exact point in time I started to hear their voices in my head. There was never a time when I did not know who the voices belonged to. When I moved back in with my parents in the San Francisco Bay Area, I saw several different psychiatrists, all of whom diagnosed me with schizophrenia. Although I knew who the people were that stalked and harassed me continuously, they hid from me on purpose, and never made any attempt at communication (phone calls, emails, letters, in person…). For this reason, I was never able to prove to anyone, psychiatrist or family member, that the voices I heard in my head, and the people who were stalking me were real. I assumed that the mafia and my former roommate and her boyfriend did this intentionally.
 This continued for several years, until around 2010 when the mafia, along with my former roommate and her boyfriend, started shouting verbal threats directed at myself, my husband and my immediate family. These threats were death threats, bomb threats, and intimidation. Since that time, the spring and fall of 2010, I made numerous attempts to contact a variety of law enforcement agencies, with absolutely no response whatsoever, even to this day.
 In the spring of 2010, I started with the Sunnyvale Police Department, describing the situation in general with the mafia and the death threats – nothing. Next I emailed and called the San Francisco FBI office, giving them the same information – I received no response other than that they did not deal with issues involving “harassment.” In 2011, I presumed that finally, some type of law enforcement agency or government office had become involved, although I was never contacted in any way. 
 Over the next few year, in 2012 and 2013, I contacted the CIA as well as the White House, again explaining the situation and its lack of resolution. I received no reply. The mafia and a few others were (and still are) stalking and harassing me constantly. At some point during this time, I concluded that whoever was conducting this investigation (perhaps a specially appointed Congressional committee or maybe the CIA) had directed my husband and my family, as well as the general public (including all media outlets) to maintain the notion that there really are no people stalking me, screaming at me in public places and following me around everywhere I go. Everyone is to maintain that I really do have schizophrenia and that my experiences are merely symptoms of this mental illness. 
 Initially I believed that this sort of cover-up was necessary for my own protection and for my family’s protection. I no longer believe this, and I am firmly convinced that the continued perpetration of this disastrous lie is solely due to an abhorrent, cowardly fear of a lawsuit that I would certainly have substantial grounds to file if I had the information about who is involved in this absurdly preposterous attempt at a cover-up.
 The reason I say “attempt” at a cover-up is because many, many thousands of people, particularly in the San Francisco Bay Area are aware of what is going on, and of the fact that there is such an incredibly, miserable attempt at a cover-up going on. Trust me – no one is fooled by my fake schizophrenia diagnosis – least of all me. And of course, it’s impossible to cover-up something everyone already knows.

 

 
 

 

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The Reality As I See It - VideoPodCast 1

This Is the Truth

 Click on the link above to view the video on YouTube. The transcript is below.

With this initial video podcast, I will briefly explain from my perspective, the reality as I see it. In an attempt to dispel the lies, gossip, rumors, or whatever other misinformation may be out there, I will share my own experience.

As I am currently revising my memoir manuscript and getting it ready for publication, I will not go into great detail here. This is the purpose of my memoir, titled “Never Give Up: Buddhism, Family and Schizophrenia.” My experience with the mafia and the other stalkers began in 2002. I have described the beginnings when I lived in Southern California from 2001 until March 2002 in my Kindle ebook, “The Voices Never Stopped.” This is available on Amazon for $1.99. This ebook ends when I leave for Northern California in March/April of 2002, and the remainder of my experience (up until the present) is described in my memoir. I am hoping to publish my memoir later this year.

In “The Voices Never Stopped,” I describe the appearance of the mafia in my life, as well as my roommates and coworkers who start to stalk and harass me – including the exact point in time I started to hear their voices in my head. There was never a time when I did not know who the voices belonged to. When I moved back in with my parents in the San Francisco Bay Area, I saw several different psychiatrists, all of whom diagnosed me with schizophrenia. Although I knew who the people were that stalked and harassed me continuously, they hid from me on purpose, and never made any attempt at communication (phone calls, emails, letters, in person…). For this reason, I was never able to prove to anyone, psychiatrist or family member, that the voices I heard in my head, and the people who were stalking me were real. I assumed that the mafia and my former roommate and her boyfriend did this intentionally.

This continued for several years, until around 2010 when the mafia, along with my former roommate and her boyfriend, started shouting verbal threats directed at myself, my husband and my immediate family. These threats were death threats, bomb threats, and intimidation. Since that time, the spring and fall of 2010, I made numerous attempts to contact a variety of law enforcement agencies, with absolutely no response whatsoever, even to this day.

In the spring of 2010, I started with the Sunnyvale Police Department, describing the situation in general with the mafia and the death threats – nothing. Next I emailed and called the San Francisco FBI office, giving them the same information – I received no response other than that they did not deal with issues involving “harassment.” In 2011, I presumed that finally, some type of law enforcement agency or government office had become involved, although I was never contacted in any way.

Over the next few year, in 2012 and 2013, I contacted the CIA as well as the White House, again explaining the situation and its lack of resolution. I received no reply. The mafia and a few others were (and still are) stalking and harassing me constantly. At some point during this time, I concluded that whoever was conducting this investigation (perhaps a specially appointed Congressional committee or maybe the CIA) had directed my husband and my family, as well as the general public (including all media outlets) to maintain the notion that there really are no people stalking me, screaming at me in public places and following me around everywhere I go. Everyone is to maintain that I really do have schizophrenia and that my experiences are merely symptoms of this mental illness.

Initially I believed that this sort of cover-up was necessary for my own protection and for my family’s protection. I no longer believe this, and I am firmly convinced that the continued perpetration of this disastrous lie is solely due to an abhorrent, cowardly fear of a lawsuit that I would certainly have substantial grounds to file if I had the information about who is involved in this absurdly preposterous attempt at a cover-up.

The reason I say “attempt” at a cover-up is because many, many thousands of people, particularly in the San Francisco Bay Area are aware of what is going on, and of the fact that there is such an incredibly, miserable attempt at a cover-up going on. Trust me – no one is fooled by my fake schizophrenia diagnosis – least of all me. And of course, it’s impossible to cover-up something everyone already knows.

 

 

 

 

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